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P.T.Penguino

misanthropist extraordinaire


Chickadee Clouds
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      I can report now with some authority that it is at around this TWO MONTHS mark of near-daily birdfeeding, they little birdies cloud around my head with twitters of hungry expectancy. What a feeling, when a car drives past in the parking lot, and in their fear, all the birds fly toward me. Today there are juncos, finches, and cardinals - male and female. & of course! Chickadees.

so SO scatterbrained
"i think i'm going grey"
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Overwhelmed?

Totally not worrying that I sucked so hard doing the last show that I'll never get a chance to do another...?
Now understanding that some radio silence was more about real life, elsewhere.
Feeling superfluous & unwanted.
Feeling tight across the chest, with the breathing.

Need to....
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I need to get over this nagging feeling "no one likes me & no one wants me there"... even if it's true...

Unblocking everyone, all at once.
Why not? I am here to live out loud, not to cower in fear.

exhaustion
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& on & on...



President Trump: The Inauguration
4pm, BBC One/ STV
"After a long absence, The Twilight Zone returns with one of the most ambitious, expensive and controversial productions in broadcast history. Sci-fi writers have dabbled often with alternative history stories - among the most common is the "What If The Nazis Had Won The Second World War" setting - but this huge interactive virtual reality project, which will unfold on TV, in the press, and on Twitter over the next four years, sets out to build an ongoing alternative present.
The story begins in a nightmarish version of 2017 in which huge sections of the US electorate have somehow been duped into voting to make Donald Trump president. It sounds far-fetched, and it is, but as it goes on it becomes more and more chillingly plausible. Today's feature-length opener concentrates on the gaudy inauguration of President Trump, and the stirrings of protest and despair surrounding the ceremony, while pundits speculate gravely on what lies ahead. It's a flawed piece, but a disturbing glimpse of the horrors we could stumble into, if we're not careful."

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Keeping On
"i think i'm going grey"
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I have quit caring if news is real or a joke; reality is now a joke.



North Carolina No Longer Classified A Democracy

U of M Boycott

Women and Men Use Cities Differently

Chris Kulwe Opines Again

Mari Lwyd - a horse skull visits your home around Christmas, and you must best it in poetry or allow it inside.
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gender-blending
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I am always trying to be "out" as possible, but also life is complicated & the world is stupid.

I am a tiny, grumpy old man, no matter what I look like. Until you understand this, nothing I say will make much sense. I began to feel the Girl path was not for me when I was three years old, and I happened to have a supportive grandfather.
In "recent" years - the past decade, I more often dress like a frilly girly girl because the world is to aggressively telling girls they "can't" or "shouldn't" - so I do. Like, mowing the lawn all in PIIINK to unambiguously send the message that IMMA GIIIIRRRL instead of person in scrubby yardwork clothes. "Living Out Loud". I might be a little bit of a punk.

My "identity" mostly as GenderFuck, which is short for "fuck you and your heteronormative gender binary". For pronouns "s/he" where possible. The gender-blending isn't an accident.

The feeling when you get gendered correctly by a stranger... "Pardon me, sir! Do you know the way to Habersham Street?" It happens so rarely, these days I am very rarely dressing in boymode, but the feeling when it does happen -!
Or chatting online, "Excuse me, but I cannot tell if you are a man or a woman?" M a g i c a l . . .

Misster Pemgin...
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Cookies
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Cookie Recipe - with some odd instructions

Um.
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Things are looking bleak...

Do Not Panic Collapse )

LOLitics? ...this is the weak laughter of disbelief.

obsolescence
"i think i'm going grey"
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Standing Rock Persists

Bats & Bananas

Female Friendships




Open Floor Plan - Next Level

Stresssssssssss......
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Decoding the Civil War is my new video game, apparently.
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